Lately I have been lacking creativity and inspiration in my writing and thoughts. I have found it really hard to think and write like I love to.
I used to lay awake just thinking, reading a few verses, mumbling into the nothingness, and writing.. I would spend hours each night doing this and the creativity just came naturally.. words would appear in my vocabulary that I had never uttered before.. I was filled with inspiration and the desire to write until my eyes wouldnt stay open anymore. What I loved most was the passion building up inside me.. my heart demanding action and my spirit overwhelmed by purpose.
Earlier this week I saw a picture I drew as a self-portrait about 5 months ago. It looked nothing like me. It had a few random scribbles that represented what I thought was a true reflection of my heart. I saw that picture earlier this week.. it is stuck to my desk in my office.. it has been stuck there all year. I just never looked at it.
When I looked at the picture I felt sad. I feel that I have lost myself in all that is me.. make sense? It is bizarre you know, just doing the 'right thing' and living a 'good life' is pointless. It is one of the saddest misunderstandings about christianity.
I think it is time to whip out the leatherbound, grab a fineliner and get back to basics.
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Doing 'the right thing' and living a 'good life' is only pointless if it's not actually really 'the right thing' or the 'good life' though, isn't it? I know that's perhaps both too obvious and too cryptic at the same time, but I feel it's true. When you strive for the truth, as a condition of the heart, that longing of the soul would just mean that you're not quite there yet. Getting back to basics, as you say, is always a great idea. Like someone famous (was it Nietzsche? not sure) once said: too many are stubborn in pursuit of the path they have chosen, too few in pursuit of the goal.
Oh, and hello! Was that too much for a first comment? Sorry.
Cheers for the comment Dennis :)
Welcome to my blog.. oh and.. no such thing as a comment too long.. even if it is the first ;-)
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